Lately I've been thinking...

There was this time today when I cried. I was shocked because it's the first time I cried just by thinking of someone. You want to know who that person is?

It's my Grandmother.

I just randomly think of her. This happens often because there are times in my life when I stop and say to myself: What if Lola was here?

I thought of her when we won 5th place in our speech choir competition. I bet she would have been proud.

I thought of her when I held the 5.5 place during our third grading period. I bet she would have been proud.

I thought of her during Christmas, Valentine's, my birthday. If she were alive, she'll cook delicious food for the family.

I thought of her during my graduation and all of the dreams we shared. I promised her so many things. Now I don't have the chance to give her anything anymore.

I love my Lola. She was the person I talk to when I'm all alone. Now that she's gone, I feel more alone than ever. I know It's been so many months since she left but the feeling of loss is still fresh in my heart.