Here's to the Year 2011!

Another year is about to end and it's been one hell of a year for me. So many things happened this year. 

2011-- a year filled with happiness, disappointments, fears, excitements, surprises, you name every emotion a person feels, I think I've felt them all. 

The highlight of this year for me is my graduation and going to college. 

Graduation means I have achieved another chapter of my life, which is high school. I've survived four years of pure torture (haha). 

Going to college, I've overcome  the fear of being alone (since my high school friends and I have gone our separate ways)  and have made friends, plenty of them.

Now, seating here in front of the computer and typing away, flashes of what have happened this year pass through my mind and I can't help that feeling of being overwhelmed of everything. Today, December 31, the end of the year, there are those things I  regret because I didn't do things and I'm afraid I won't get another opportunity to go back. And today, I look forward to many other things to come the next year...

Forgiveness...

Happiness...

More love...

More friends...

More blessings...

Even the bad things, throw them at me.

I am proud to say that I've survived another year. Now I welcome 2012.

What Has Changed?

What has changed in us

That made you treat me so?

All those moments in the past,

Now I watch as they slowly go.

In those lovely brown eyes,

What do you really see?

Was it really love

When you look at me?

In your warm, lovely smile,

What do you really give?

Was I really at home

With the smiles I've received?

In those sweet words,

What do you really mean?

Was it really true

When you said "I love you"?

Now what has changed?

You still look, smile and talk to me

Yet I feel the love has left 

And that it's not really meant to be.

How to Lose A Guy in 10 Days

So another movie review, eh? I just can't stop watching and reading books. Plus I don't have much to blog lately so I share my thoughts to you guys through the books I read and the movies I watch. I seem to have plenty of time to watch and read but less in studying. Oh well. 

How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days is about Andie and Ben. Andie is a columnist in Composure magazine. She writes "how to's" and her latest project was, yes, you've guessed it-- how to lose a guy in 10 days. She set out to find the guy with whom she is going to use with the experiment. That's when she meets Ben who has made a bet to make a girl fall in love with her in 10 days in order to get the advertising rights to a diamond merchant. So now, you see what's the conflict of the plot because I don't want to spoil (as always).

The movie is great. I think most of them are. It's funny and it's moving specially that scene where-- oops! No spoiler! It shows how Andie really did all those things girls do to turn off a guy but she can't push Ben away 'cause he's making her fall in love with him. And that's when I narrated the conflict. you really have to watch it! Do I sound convincing enough?! Yes? Good.

But I'm going to watch it again tonight.

"You can't lose something you never had" 

-Andie

Shakespeare in Love

This film was released in 1998. I only had the chance to watch it today, since I was like, 3 years old at that time. I regret only watching it now because it was such a great movie, I don't even know what to say. 

I bought a CD earlier today at SM Manila. It's a buy 1 take 1 promo, and I chose Shakespeare in Love and Atonement for 156 pesos. I just want to add that it was worth it! 

I don't really know if there really was a Viola de Lesseps in the real Shakespeare's heart (though I do think there's none) but the film gave a twist to the Shakespeare's story. It was very creative, using his novels, Romeo and Juliet, and Twelfth Night, plus his Sonnet 18. 

The cinematography was great. I don't really know how plays were done in the sixteenth century, now I think I know. Before I thought that his plays were done in larger stages than what was shown in the film. (You have to watch it to see). I was also surprised that only men can play parts in the theater. I was like, "So in the earlier times, Juliet was played by a man?!" I really can't get over that part. 

I want to tell you the story but I don't want to spoil much (for those who haven't watched it yet). All in all, it was a work of art. Plus, Joseph Fiennes is so hot! Lol. 

My Name Is Memory

I've just finished reading My Name is Memory by Ann Brashers. It was amazing! Very much different from the vampire, angels, fallen angels, werewolves kind of stories. I am very much encouraging you to read this book. Oh, how I hope there will be a second book because I feel that there will be one since there's that feeling of one wanting to read more. I think Lucy and Daniel's story is going to continue and I hope Ann writes a second book, I truly do.

The story's about Lucy and Daniel and how Daniel copes up with lifetimes of being with Lucy (which in her previous lives were called Sophia and Constance). Daniel has the Memory and he remembers every single lives he's had and how he first met Lucy and that in so many years, he's searched for her. He's seen her as a child, an old woman, a teenager in different times and with different appearances but still, he knows it's her.

I guess that's all the story I can narrate to you. It's such a very good-- the best-- story. It really fascinated me how different it is from all the stories that comes out. I guess what you can say about the book is that soul mates really do exist.

And while I was reading, I can't help but write some quotable quotes. Here they are:

• How many times could you give up on someone you loved?
• The petty workings of your birdlike mind brought you down, and forgetting was your only salvation.
• Someday was the thing he had, because it was a lot harder to ruin than today.
• I can't describe how thrilling it was to be with someone like me, and how little of myself I shared with most people.
• As I've said, it's desire more than anything else that keeps us coming back for more.
• The regrets stay with you. They distort you over time.
• Please believe him. Keep your heart open to him. He can make you happy. He has always loved you, and you once loved him with all your heart.
• She wished she could swap her days for her nights, her reality for dreams.
• Love who you love while you have them. That's all you can do. Let them go when you must. If you know how to love, you'll never run out.
• You remember what is lost, and you forget what's right in front of you.
• Love demands everything, they say, but my love demands only this: that no matter what happens or how long it takes, you'll keep faith in me, you'll remember who we are, and you'll never feel despair.

If Walls Could Talk...

Kanina, nasa bahay namin si Pearl. Tapos nag-usap kami about things. Tapos basta habang nakikinig ako sa kanya, bigla kong na-realize na ang dami na palang nangyaring moments sa kwarto ko. May mga secrets-sharing moments, iyakan moments, tawanan moments, UDA (script-writers) moments, jamming sessions, sleep-over and what-nots. Karugtong ng realization na 'yon eh yung masayang feeling na narealize ko na sa mga bagay na nabanggit ko kanina, TNP ang lagi kong kasama. 

Sa maliit kong kwarto ko, nadala ko yung friends ko at nakita nila kung ano talaga ako. Sa ayos pa lang ng kwarto ko, which is magulo, kitang-kita mo na yung personality ko. And I'm happy na lahat sila nadala ko doon. Kaya ayokong mawala yung kwarto ko eh. It's part of who I am. Nandoon halos lahat ng mga importanteng bagay sa akin. Alam ko bawat crack sa kisame, bawat alikabok sa gilid-gilid, bawat umbok sa kama, at bawat papel sa singit-singit. Haha. Akala mo kung ano yung pinag-uusapan eh.

Ayon, ngayon ko lang nabigyan ng appreciation yung kwarto ko after halos 7 years kong pag-stay doon.

Nalulula ako sa bagong layout ng Blogger. Haha. Ngayon lang uli ako nagbukas, may bagong layout na agad. Nangagain ng t*nga ung bagong layout eh. Biglaan naman kasing nag-iba. Sana pinaunti-unti man lang nila, diba?! Haha.

I am Afraid

You say that you love rain,
but you open your umbrella when it rains...
You say that you love the sun,
but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines...
You say that you love the wind,
But you close your windows when wind blows...
This is why I am afraid;
You say that you love me too...

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I love the message of this poem that's why I posted this. When I saw it on the internet, I just can't wait to share it to you guys. It was said that it's by Shakespeare but I'd like to disagree because it's not in Shakespearean language, you know, the deep, nose-bleeding words he uses in his plays? Anyway, it's from an unknown person, so whoever you are, you rock!

Hotdog Sandwich

Kahapon pagkauwi ko galing school, naghihintay ako sa tatay ko sa 7- eleven. Tapos nung dumating na siya, sabi niya walang pagkain sa bahay. Kaya naman sa 7-eleven na ako kumain.

Syempre, kinain ko don yung lagi kong kinakain: HOTDOG SANDWICH. Edi nakuha ko na yung tong, tapos may plastic na ko sa kaliwang kamay ko. Tapos may bun na, yun na nga yung last eh. Nung kukunin ko na yung hotdog, nalaglag siya sa sahig. Hindi kasi talaga ako magaling humawak ng tong. Lalo na yung malaki. Nakita ni tatay tapos natawa siya. Kasi pinulot ko yung hotdog sa sahig tapos binalik ko siya sa loob. Ako naman, kabado bente. kasi baka may nakakita sa kin. Tingin ako, kaliwa, kanan, parang wala namang nakakita ng nalaglag na hotdog. Edi kumuha na ko ng bago. Buti hindi nalaglag.

Kinakabahan pa din ako nung time na to. Mas tumaas ang kaba ko nung nakita ko yung security camera sa taas. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, Hala, baka nahuli ako. Nakakakaba talaga yung mga security camera. Naisip ko tuloy pano pagbalik ko ng 7-eleven mamukaan nila ako? Hanggang pagbayad ko ng hotdog sandwich, kinakabahan talaga ako. Pero buti na lang, safe ang lahat.

Ewan ko lang, kung sure na. KAso baka mamaya pagbalik ko don, hulihin ako. Haha.

Angels' Blood

So, ako nanaman yung nahu-hook sa libro. Pagkatapos ng Twilight, Hush Hush, Fallen, Feather na series, dito naman ako sa series na ito naglibang. Unfortunately, hindi pa siya complete kaya medyo bitin pa ang pagbabasa ko. Ito ang pagkakasunod-sunod nila:

Angel's Blood
Archangel's Kiss
Archangel's Consort

Angel's Blood is the first book in the series. It's about a vampire hunter, Elena, who worked for the Archangel of New York, Raphael, to hunt down an archangel gone rogue.

Unfortunately, yan lang ang synopsis na ibibigay ko sa inyo... Haha. Basahiin niyo na lang kung naiintriga kayo. Pero maganda siya.

And as usual, pinakagusto ko yung first book. (Lagi naman eh) Yung second book kasi habang binabasa ko, parang walang masyadong nangyari.

Kakaiba itong libro kasi usually ang nababasa kong book ay tungkol sa vampires alone, or fallen angels. Dito ang hierarchy ay ganito:

Archangels-Angels-Vampires-Human

Minsan lang ako makabasa ng book na as in angels talaga yung character. Nakasanayan na kasi na fallen angels lang. Tsaka minsan lang din yung may angel tsaka vampire. Kasi nga sa story na ito, yung mga angels ang gumagawa ng vampires. Basta, ang hirap magkwento kapag ayaw kong maging spoiler eh! Haha. Basahin niyo na lang kaya ko nga ini-endorse yung libro diba!?!

Pero beware of sexual content kasi meron siya. Eh, sakin okay lang kasi nabuksan na yung isip ko since nung nabasa ko yung Eleven Minutes ni Paulo Coelho eh. Haha. Ayon lang.

Basahin niyo yung libro ah!

Kundiman

Para kang asukal
Sintamis mong magmahal
Para kang pintura
Buhay ko ikaw ang nagpinta
Para kang unan
Pinapainit mo ang aking tiyan
Para kang kumot na yumayakap
Sa tuwing ako’y nalulungkot

Kaya’t wag magtataka
Kung bakit ayaw kitang maawala

Kung hindi man tayo hanggang dulo
Wag mong kalimutan
Nandito lang ako
Laging umaalalay
Di ako lalayo
Dahil ang tanging panalangin ko ay ikaw

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Grabe, naaadik ako sa kantang ito by Silent Sanctuary. Kelan ko lang siya nadiscover nung nagperform sila sa school. Yung mga tao, nag-ch-chant sila, "Kundiman! Kundiman! Kundiman!" Eh ako naman di ko alam yung kanta. Nung kinakanta na siya ako, parang wala lang tapos yung iba, sing-a-long na. Tapos nung isang araw, sinearch ko siya sa Youtube. Tapos paulit-ulit ko na siyang pinakinggan. Hanggang sa naadik na ko. Ayon. Haha

Minsan naiilang akong magpost sa Facebook ng status kasi friends kami ng mga kamag-anak ko eh.

Happy moments naman daw

Oo, yung mga previous blog entries ko, panay kadramahan. Di ko lang talaga maiwasan na mamiss yung mga friends ko lalo na itong isang ito na nagcomment na panay kadramahan yung posts ko. (Inna, parang di ka pa nasanay sa drama ko. LOL)

Eh, ngayon, syempre nakonsensy naman ako kasi sa mga nakabasa ng mga blog posts ko noon, siguro ganito din yung napansin nila. Kaya naman nagdecide ako na magpost naman ng happy moments. Tapos naisip ko, sa sobrang dami, hindi ko na masyadong maalala lahat, lalo pa't sobrang makakalimutin ako.

Isa pa, parang yung mga masayang moments ko ay nai-post ko na dito sa blog ko. Ito yung ilan oh: Under sa title na Memories.

Sa ngayon wala akong gaanong HAPPY MOMENTS. Oo, may friends na ko sa PUP. Oo, nakakapagbiruan na kami. Pero iba pa din yung moments na kasama ko ang TNP. Iba yung saya na nararamdaman ko kapag kasama sila sa saya na nararamdaman ko pag kasama ko yung iba. Talagang masasabi ko na lahat ng happy moments ko sa buhay ko kasama ko sila.

Ayoko nang dagdagan itong post na to! Nagdadrama nanaman ako eh!

Tawa: Hagikgik, Halakhak, at Hagalpak

Filipino siguro ang pinaka- favorite kong course sa college. Ikaw ba naman magkaroon ng nakaka-aliw at nakakatuwang professor eh hindi mo magustuhan... Anyway, malayo na ko sa topic na ididiscuss ko.

Napag-aralan naman natin sa high school yung tindi ng meaning ng words, right? Yung simula sa pinakamababang meaning ng words hanggang sa pinakagrabe.

Kunwari:
Hinaplos
Hinawakan
Kumapit
Biniyabit...


(Basta ganyan. Iniisip ko lang din yang mga yan) So ayun. Habang nagbibigay si sir ng mga examples, sinabi niya yung pinagkaiba ng mga terms na may kinalaman sa tawa. Ito yun:

Hagikgik
- pagtawa ng walang tunog at ang balikat lang ang gumagalaw.

Halakhak
- pagtawa ng malakas.

Hagalpak
- pagtawa ng malakas na may kasamang body movements like paghampas sa lamesa o kaya sa katabi mo.

"Kaya kapag humigikgik lang ang katabi mo, 'wag mong sabihing, 'kung makahalpak naman ito.' dahil iba yun." sabi ng Professor ko.

Habang dine-define niya yung meaning ng tatlo, syempre sumagi sa isip ko kung paano ako tumawa. Kung nasaang kategorya ako. Narealize ko na nagawa ko na lahat ng form ng tawa. Pati nga ilong sumasama pa. Oo, inaamin ko, tumatawa din ang ilong ko. Yung pagtawa ko, depende sa mood nung tinatawanan ko. Depene din sa ka-tawanan ko. Haha.

Kung tatanungin ako kung paano ako tumawa ngayon, nasa hagikgik mode ako. Ang hirap kasing humagalpak at humalakhak sa classroom. Masyadong attention seeker. Ayoko naman nun. Haha. Humagalpak at humalakhak lang talaga ako kapag comfortable ako sa taong kasama kong tumawa. At isa pa, walang masyadong nagpapatawa sa akin lately kaya madalas akong stressed.

Nakakamiss din palang tumawa ng wala lang kwenta yung mga tinatawanan mo, noh? Kasi iyan lagi yung ginagawa ko nung high school pa ko-- yung tumawa sa mga maliliit na bagay na halos wala ng kwenta. Ewan ko ba, parang medyo nawala sa akin iyon ngayong college.

Ayoko nang ituloy yung mga guston kong sabihin pa. Tama na ang drama sa blog ko, umaapaw na. Gusto ko lang naman talagang i-share ang pinagkaiba ng hagikgik halakhak at hagalpak

An atheist professor of Philosophy was speaking to his class on the problem Science has with GOD. He asked one of his new Christian Students to stand and . . .

Professor : You are a Christian, aren't you, son ?

Student : Yes, sir.

Professor: So, you believe in GOD ?

Student : Absolutely, sir.

Professor : Is GOD good ?

Student : Sure.

professor: Is GOD all powerful ?

Student : Yes.

Professor: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to GOD to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn't. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?

(Student was silent.)

Professor: You can't answer, can you ? Let's start again, young fella. Is GOD good?

Student : Yes.

Professor: Is satan good ?

Student : No.

Professor: Where does satan come from ?

Student : From . . . GOD . . .

Professor: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?

Student : Yes.

Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn't it ? And GOD did make everything. Correct?

Student : Yes.

Professor: So who created evil ?

(Student did not answer.)

Professor: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?

Student : Yes, sir.

Professor: So, who created them ?

(Student had no answer.)

Professor: Science says you have 5 Senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son, have you ever seen GOD?

Student : No, sir.

Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your GOD?

Student : No , sir.

Professor: Have you ever felt your GOD, tasted your GOD, smelt your GOD? Have you ever had any sensory perception of GOD for that matter?

Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.

Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?

Student : Yes.

Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?

Student : Nothing. I only have my faith.

Professor: Yes, faith. And that is the problem Science has.

Student : Professor, is there such a thing as heat?

Professor: Yes.

Student : And is there such a thing as cold?

Professor: Yes.

Student : No, sir. There isn't.

(The lecture theatre became very quiet with this turn of events.)

Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.

(There was pin-drop silence in the lecture theater.)

Student : What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?

Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?

Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light. But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and its called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it is, were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?

Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man ?

Student : Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.

Professor: Flawed ? Can you explain how?

Student : Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good GOD and a bad GOD. You are viewing the concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing.

Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Professor: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.

Student : Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The Professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going.)

Student : Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor. Are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?

(The class was in uproar.)

Student : Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?

(The class broke out into laughter. )

Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?

(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable.)

Professor: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.

Student : That is it sir . . . Exactly ! The link between man & GOD is FAITH. That is all that keeps things alive and moving.

P.S.

I believe you have enjoyed the conversation. And if so, you'll probably want your friends / colleagues to enjoy the same, won't you?

Forward this to increase their knowledge . . . or FAITH.

By the way, that student was Einstein.!

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Hindi na ako uupo sa 3-seater sa bus. EVER.

Ayoko ng umupo sa 3-seater ng bus.

Kagabi ko lang ito napagtanto. Pauwi na kasi ako galing sa school. Tapos sumakay na ko sa bus pauw, papuntang Zapote. Eh sa may parteng PNU konti pa lang yung sumasakay kasi nga halos nag-uumpisa pa lang ung biyahe ng bus. So, madaming bakanteng upuan. Yung mga 2-seater may mga nag-oocuppy na mga tig-iisa bawat upuan. Ayoko namang tumabi sa kanila kasi naiisip ko na baka ayaw muna nilang matabihan. (Katulad ko, ayoko ding matabihan sa bus) So umupo na ko sa 3-seater sa may window seat.

Maya-maya may mga studyante ng Adamson na sumakay. Ang dami nila. Halos pinuno na nila yung bus. Yung tumabi sa akin, mag-SYOTA (Hindi ko prefer itong word na ito pero para sa kanila, iyan ang gagamitin ko.) Maglampungan ba naman sa tabi ko! Asar. Eh ako naman itong forever alone, sinalpak na lang yung earphones sa tenga ko para mapunta ako sa ibang mundo kahit papano.

Ito namang si lalaki, tinanggal pa yung aricon sa tapat ko tapos tinapat yung 2 bilog sa kanya. RUDE MUCH! Di man lang nagtanong kung pwede niyang itapat parehong aircon sa kanya.

By this point, kumukulo na talaga yung dugo ko. Iniimagine ko na yung mga sasabihin ko sa kanila at baka matampal ko pa silang dalawa. Buti na lang bumaba na sila sa Buendia kundi sisipain ko talaga ang mga mukha nila. Di ko sila kayang i-tolerate.

And that's why di na ko uupo sa 3-seater ng bus. The End.

Does the future scare you?

Ngayon ko lang narealize na kung gaano ka-sobra yung kasiyahan ko, ganoon din ka-sobra kapag nalulungkot ako.

Si Tatay

Kagabi, nasa kwarto ako nina Tatay. Andun silang dalawa ni Yan-yan. Tapos nung una, dinaldal ko sila tungkol sa kung anu-ano, lalo na sa school. Tapos maya-maya, tumahimik ako. Edi nagulat si tatay, kasi bigla kong tumahimik. Umiiyak na pala ako. Tapos tinanong niya kung bakit.

Sabi ko, "Si Karol kasi nandito kanina."

Tapos natuwa si tatay. "Iyon lang umiiyak ka na?"

"Hindi! Namimiss ko lang yung mga kaibigan ko kaya ko umiiyak."

"Eh paano yan? Magkakahiwalay na kayo? Di naman pwedeng lagi mo silang iyakan. Masyado niyo kasing pinalalim yung samahan niyo eh."

Sa point na 'to medyo nasaktan ako dun sa sinabi niya? "Eh anong gusto niyo? Pumasok at mag-aral lang ako sa high school."

Tapos sumingit yung kapatid ko. "Palibhasa si tatay walang kaibigan nung high school."

Si tatay naman defensive, "Hindi, may kaibigan ako, nag-iisa lang siya. Kami talaga yung magkasama lagi. Hanggang ngayon naiisip ko pa siya. Ang sa akin lang, simula nung gumraduate kami, di ko na siya nakita. Ako, di ko alam bahay niya. Eh siya, alam niya kung saan ako nakatira. Ayokong isipin na baka ako na lang yung nag-iisip sa kanya."

Dun sa sinabi niyang iyon, napatahimik ako. Napaisip na din. Si tatay, may isa siyang kaibigan na di na niya nakita kahit kelan. Ako merong 8. Mangyari din kaya sa akin yun? Pero sa isip ko, hindi mangyayari iyon. Iniisip ko na siguro naman namimiss din nila ko katulad ng pagkakamiss ko sa kanila.

Ayon, as consolation dahil sa napakababaw na luha ko, si tatay kung anu-anong sinabi. Sabi niya, dito ko daw sila patulugin ng isang linggo. O kaya bibigyan niya ko ng pera tapos ilibre ko daw sila. (Para sa TNP na nagbabasa nito, joke lang yun ni tatay ah). Tapos tatabihan niya daw ako sa classroom magdaldalan daw kami.

Si tatay... Natutuwa ako na ginagawa niya ang lahat para sa amin. Kahit simpleng bagay lang, basta masaya kami, ibibigay niya. Nagiging kaibigan ko siya kapag kailangan ko. Hindi man siya perfect na tatay pero lagi siyang nandiyan pag kailangan. May times man na di kami magkasundo, sa huli, siya pa din yung tama kahit anong tampo pa ang gawin ko.

Late ko man itong sasabihin, pero, TAY, thank you sa lahat! Sa pagtitiyaga sa akin ng 16 years. I love you, and happy father's day!

Bold the things you have done.

Swam in the ocean.
Swam in the lake.
Been in a skit.
Received a 100 in a class.
Won an award.
Slept for a whole day.
Met a celebrity.
Been to Canada.
Been to California.
Been to Oregon.
Been to North Carolina.
Been to South Carolina.
Been to Florida.
Been to Oklahoma.
Played house.
Had an imaginary friend.
Read a book in one whole day.
Been on a horrible date.
Been tipsy.
Saw my favorite singer in concert.
Ate a salad from McDonalds.
Farted in public.
Thrown up in class.
Spit on someone.
Lit something on fire.
Smoked a cigarette.
Gave a speech.
Put a hole in the wall.
Broke a dish on accident.
Broke a dish on purpose.
Worked at an office before.
Worked at a daycare.
Used a webcam.
Cussed out a teacher.
Cussed out my parents.
Failed only one class.
Saw Phantom of the Opera live.
Hugged a complete stranger.
Played The Sims 2 for over two hours.
Had a movie marathon.
Yelled in public.
Watched a movie over 100 hundred times.
Have been brutally honest with people.
I avoid some people on purpose.
I’ve thought about cheating.
I hate the way I look most of the time.
I actually like the way I look most of the time. (Errr love/hate relationship with myself.)
I have siblings.
I have pets.
I’ve been on vacation recently.
I love meeting new people.
I am insanely shy.
I’m on a sports team.
I play music.
My best friend is a boy.
I talk on the phone every night.
I drink milk almost every day.
I like to read.
I like to watch tv.
I couldnt care less about video games.
I hate my mom and dad.
I’ve never asked someone out.
I can touch my nose with my tongue.
I’ve been to another continent.
I miss being a little kid.
I’ve been to a public pool recently.
Summer is my favorite time of the year.
Winter is my favorite time of the year.
I’ve been to a concert recently.
I drive and have my own car.
My room is almost always messy.
I’m listening to music right now.
Music helps me work.
The last person I texted was a boy.
I want a new phone really bad.
I secretly love cartoons.
I am dating someone.
The last thing I drank was water.
I used to play with barbies.
I collect something.
I’ve been to a carnival recently.
I know what syncopation is.
I need to charge my phone.
I’m still in my pajamas.
I have to go to school tomorrow.
I need to clean something.
I’ve broken a bone.
I’ve eaten something weird.
I’m an extremely picky eater.
I’ve been out to eat recently.
I love going to the mall.
I hate big groups.
I’m watching tv right now.
People say I’m pretty.
I’ve been told that I have gorgeous eyes.
I need new clothes really bad.
My hair is up right now.
I need to shave my legs.
I get good grades.
I have a myspace.
I have a facebook.
I showered last night.
Someone I know has died.
Someone I know has had cancer.
It’s past my bedtime.
People tell me that they like my clothes.
I actually got a stupid class ring.
I’ve kissed someone in front of my parents.
I’ve kissed someone on new years.
I love halloween.
I remember the last time I tripped.
It’s hard to sleep without a blanket.
I played soccer when I was little.
I played basketball when I was little.
My ears are pierced.
My bellybutton is pierced
I plan on getting married.
I plan on having some kids.
I curse a lot.
I know someone in a band.
I can dance really well.
I suck at math.
I am pro-choice. (Well idk, it’s your choice in the end.)
I know some rednecks.
I still love an ex.
I’ve been told that I have a nice butt.
I can speak another language.
I am fluent in another language.
I can play the piano.
I’ve been told that I can’t dance.
I’m a cheerleader.
I believe in God.
I want to go to Mexico.
I like to waste time.
I like to sleep.
My first kiss kinda sucked.
I think smoking is gross.
I’ve never gotten my nails done.
I should be doing homework right now.
I love horror movies.
All of my grandparents are alive.
I miss my boyfriend.
I haven’t talked to my best friend all day.
People tell me that I’m short. (Well, I am.)
Sometimes my socks don’t match.
I cant wait til my birthday.
I’m a procrastinator.
I’m not like everyone else.
I like strawberries.
I like thunderstorms.
Someone’s mad at me right now.
I hate when people are rude.
I’m an optimist.
I am really self-conscious. (To an extent? Not really though.)
My first relationship ended badly.
I love when boys hold doors open.
I’ve passed out from drinking.
I’ve been in love before.
I’m a virgin.
I plan to wait for sex til marriage.
I’ve been to a funeral this year.
I am insanely hungry right now.
I liked this survey a lot.
I should probably do something productive now.

What I Want to Say

Lately madami akong nagiging ideas na pwede kong i-blog. At gusto kong i-blog. Pero nakakalimutan ko yung mga iyon. Haha. Yung mga idea na 'to nakukuha ko siya kapag nasa bus, tapos walang magawa. Ikaw ba naman sumakay ng bus ng 2 oras, may magawa ka pa kayang iba?

Pero ito talaga. Alam mo ba yung feeling na parang may gusto kang sabihin pero di mo masabi kasi di mo ma-express? Yun yung feeling ko ngayon. Sobrang hirap akong mag-express ng sarili ko.

Sa classroom, 'pag nag-sa-sound trip ako gusto kong kumanta ng malakas pero di ko magawa. Nahihiya kasi ako. Or nangangapa pa ko.

Pag gusto kong tumawa ng malakas, with matching palo ng lamesa at palakpak, pinipigil ko pa.

Pag gusto kong tumayo para mag-gala sa classroom, di ko magawa. Eh pa'no ba naman, saan ako gagala at sinong tatabihan ko para maki-chismisan? Wala pa naman akong gaanong friends.

Ang problema ko lang talaga ngayon sa pakikipag-kaibigan eh yung wala akong makilala na may kaparehong interest sa akin. Kasi kung meron man e di sobrang dinaldal ko na siya. Yung tipong wala nang kwenta yung pinag-uusapan namin, nagkkwentuhan pa din kami.

I know that lately I've been blogging of how much I've missed the company of my friends. And lately I realized that I will ALWAYS miss them. Whatever happens they're still my friends and we've been through a lot which makes our friendship stronger.

Nung huling pagkikita nga namin ng TNP, may sinabi ako kay Pearl. Nasa tricycle kami noon, pauwi na galing cerealicious. Hindi man siya exact, pero nandoon yung thought:

"Alam mo ba, Pearl, narealize ko na dadating yung time na magkakaiba na yung mga iniisip natin,
yung mga pinag-uusapan natin hindi na magiging magkapareho kasi magkakaiba na
yung environment natin. Nung nasa SJA tayo, syempre kilala natin yung mga pinag-uusapan natin,
yung mga taong pinag-chi-chismisan natin. Ngayon pag nagkkwentuhan tayo halos di na natin
kilala yung mga taong kinukwento ng isang tao. Pag nanghihingi ng advice tungkol sa
guys eh hindi naman natin kilala, anong masasabi mo sa kaibigan mo kapag na-brokenhearted
siya? Na okay lang yun? Na maayos niyo din yun? Diba mahirap gawin yun kasi di mo n
aman siya kilala. Yun yung pinaka-kinakatakutan kong mangyari."

Yun yung pinaka-kinakatakutan kong mangyari. Yung darating yung time na wala na kaming isshare na common things. Yung daratin yung time na iba na yung interests namin. Yung daratin yung time na hanggang "HI" na lang yung sasabihin namin sa isa't isa. Yung pag nag-uusap kayo may mga awkward moments na.

Alam ko na iniisip niyo, "Ano ba naman yan, Aira ang drama mo naman." Pero ito talaga yung mga thoughts na laging naglalaro sa isip ko. Actually ngayon ko lang to na-experience. Itong fear na ito. Yung fear na mawawalan ka ng taong na-share mo yung mga pinaka-magandang moments ng buhay mo.

Madami pa sana kong idadagdag kaso baka mapagod na kayo sa drama ko. Hoho.

Things I miss about High School

Ngayong naka-1 week na ko sa college, syempre di ko naman maiiwasan na magcompare. And ito yung ilan sa mga super duper namimiss ko:

1. Yung pagdating mo pa lang sa school, alam mo na kung saan ka pupunta/ tatambay. Sa college kasi, pag pasok ko pa lang ng campus, dumederetso na ko ng classroom. Wala na kong tinatambayan. Wala nang place na masasabi kong amin lang. Yung doon kami naghihintayan hanggang sa makumpleto kami.

2. Yung pagpasok mo pa lang sa classroom parang nasa palengke ka na. Namimiss ko yung times na sobra akong mag-ingay pagpasok pa lang. Yung as in buong classroom na-ikot ko na para lang makipag-chismisan. YUng may mga announcements pa. O kaya naman kopyahan ng assignments. O kaya naman kainan/ hingian ng pagkain/ kopyahan ng assignments. Ang tahimik ko kasi sa classroom.

3. Yung hingian ng pulbo, pagkain, papel o kung ano-mang gamit ng wala nang hiyaan. Ngayong college, feeling ko super kailangan ko nang dalhin lahat ng mga kailangan ko. Parang nakakahiya na kasi yung manghingi ng manghingi.

4. Yung mga tawanan na halos wala namang katuturan. Ito talaga yung namiss ko. Sa school ko kasi, pag nagpapatawa yung mga Prof., ang tawa ko sobrang limited lang. Kailangan kong pigilan yung tawa ko kapag sobrang tuwang tuwa na ko. Kailangan ko pang pigilan yung sarili kong paluin yung lamesa o kaya pumalakpak para di maingay. Tapos may mga times na parang di ka pa maka-get-over sa joke, pwede kang tumawa ng tumawa. Ngayon, kailangan tapos na.

5. Yung mga patio moments. Yung bili ng bili ng kung ano-anong pagkain. Kahit pilit kang nagtitipid, napapambili mo kasi gutom ka na. May mga times pa na nagpapalibre ka. Nung mga lower years pa kayo, iyan, ililibre ka kapag nagpa-"kalog" ka. Nung mga junior-senior year niyo, kuripot na silang lahat.

6. Yung times na sobrang ingay niya sa jeep. Namimiss ko na 'to kasi wala akong kasabay pauwi. 2 hours akong nakaupo sa bus tapos wala akong kausap. Wala akong kadaldalan. Wala akong katawanan.

7. Yung classmates ko. Sila talaga yung namiss ko. Kasi sila yung kasama ko sa high school life ko. Kung wala sila, edi wala na yung mga previous na namimiss ko. Sila yung mga kasama ko sa kalokohan, kopyahan, pakapalan ng mukha, hingian ng kung ano-ano. Kahit may mga problema sa klase, sama-sama naming inaayos. Yung mga moments na yon.


Hindi ko alam kung ngayon lang ito kasi isang linggo pa lang akong wala sa piling ng long-time friends ko pero sobrang miss ko na sila. Hanggang ngayon nga nakikita ko pa din yung classroom namin tsaka yung mga nangyayari doon. Hanggang ngayon naririnig ko pa yung tawanan nila, yung asaran. Alam ko na parang OA siya pero, totoo yun. Sobrang nalungkot ako. Yun lang.

First Day at PUP

Grabe yung first day ko.

Una, umuulan. Okay naman sa kin yon. I consider it a blessing. Haha. Mga 7:45 ako umalis ng bahay. Tapos sa may Zapote, nakita ko si Larisse, naghihintay ng bus. Ayon, so sabay na kaming sumakay sa bus. Eh medyo punuan pa nung time na iyon. Nung umpisa nakatayo kami. Si Larisse swerte nakaupo. Haha. Nakaupo na ko nung sa Coastal na. Madami nga kasing bumababa ng Coastal.

Ayon, tapos bumaba na si Larisse sa may La Salle. Tapos ako, bumaba na sa may PNU. Doon, naghihintay ako ng bus papuntang PUP. Eh may babaeng baliw doon sa bus stop. Di ko siya pianapansin habang ginagawa niya kung kabaliwan niya. Tapos bigla namang lumapit sa akin tapos kinalmot yung braso ko! Asar! Maswerte siya di ko siya pinatulan. (Baka kalmutin naman yung kabilang braso.) Ayon tapos nakasakay na din ako papuntang PUP.

Pagkatapos ng mahabang lakaran papuntang campus, nakapasok na din ako sa school ko. Una kong hinanap yung gym. Kasi doon yung first class ko. Mukha talaga akong baguhan doon kasi halos paikot-ikot na ko sa campus. Wala pa kong klaseng inaatendan, masakit na yung paa ko. Ayoko kasing magtanong-tanong. Finally, nakakita ako ng dalawang tao, isa lalaki, isa babae. Papunta din silang gym. Di ko sila kilala. Haha. Hindi man lang ako nagpakilala. Ansama ko. Pero nag-thank you naman ako sa kanila.

Maaga kaming dinismiss ng PE teacher namin. Almost lunch time na non. Nakaupo ako sa isang makalat na table (oo, ako lang mag-isa. Awkward talaga ako.) tapos may babaeng lumapit, tinanong niya kung may nakaupo, sabi ko wala, tapos ayong, nag-usap-usap kami.

Nga pala, siya si BLESS. Ka-blockmate ko. Biruin mo iyon. Ayon tapos, daldalan (siya yung mas madaming nasabi. Awkward pa ko eh.)

Tapos nagpunta kami sa susunod na subject. Accounting. Di naman terror yung Prof. Ang saya niya ngang kasama eh. Inarrange niya kami by Surname. Katabi ko si Jennys (boy; right) tsaka si Pipien (? di ako sure sa spelling; boy; left). Oh diba, bongga. Ang unique ng mga pangalan nila. Hoho.

Next subject ay English. Okay din yung Prof. Grabe yung sense of humor niya. Yung mga side comments niya. Basta. Tapos halos nose bleed to death kasi todo Engilsh siya. Tapos yung accent niya parang may pagka-mild na British accent. Astig kamo.

Ayon, maaga niya kaming dinismiss. Mga 6:45. Kung pumasok ako ng school ng mag-isa, umuwi ako, mag-isa pa din. Super tahimik ko sa classroom. Naimagine ko tuloy kung paano kung nasa SJA pa kaya ako ngayon? Edi first day pa lang ang ingay ko na. Sobra-sobra na yung tawa ko. Namiss ko talaga yun. Kasi ngayong college parang kailangan kong magsimula uli. Nakakatakot din.

So, ayon ang first day ko sa college. Di ko din naman ineexpect yung sarili ko na magkaroon ng bagong friends but I'll TRY to make new ones. Masyado kasi siguro akong nasanay sa circle of friends ko kaya medyo sarado na yung puso ko na maghanap pa ng mga bagong kaibigan. Drama. Hoho.

Paano nga ba nadedevelop ang feelings ng isang tao?

Kapag:

• Inaasar lagi siya sa isang tao - ito ang isa sa mga dahilan kung bakit nadedevelop ang nararamdaman ng isang tao. Kapag inaasar sila o kapag pinapartner sa isang tao.

• Lagi mong kausap ang isang tao - yung tipong nasasanay kang kausap mo lagi ang taong ‘yon. Yung hindi lilipas ang isang araw na hindi mo siya makakausap.

• Pareho kayo ng hilig - kumbaga, nagja-jive sila. Pareho ang interes nilang dalawa.

• Napapatawa ka niya - malaking bagay kasi na napapatawa ka ng isang tao. Yung napapasaya ka niya kasi nakakagaan yun ng pakiramdam.

• Nagbibiruan / tuksuhan - na madalas nauuwi sa totohanan. Dito nagsisimula ‘yan e. Sa isang“joke” na madalas nagiging seryoso.

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Mascot

Kahapon, umattend ako ng 1st birthday ni Aliyah, pamangkin ko. Sa Jollibee siya nag-celebrate. Edi ako, pumunta. Kasasabi ko nga lang, diba? Anyway, Ayon, nag-start na yung party. Una yung games, kainan, tapos yung part na lalabas si Jollibee, yung mascot. Tapos, picture picture kasama si Jollibee. Nagtaka tuloy ako,

YUNG NASA LOOB KAYA NG MASCOT EH NANGITI DIN PAG PINIPICTURAN?

Nung naimagine ko yon, natuwa ako. Bwahaha. Oo nga naman. Siguro kung ako yun, todo ngiti ako. Yung lahat ng expressions ng mukha na pwedeng gawin gagawin ko na. Wala namang nakakakita sa 'kin eh, bakit ba? Haha.

Gusto ko nang pumasok

Gusto ko nang pumasok. Ayoko na sa bahay. Wala nang magawa. Wala nang makausap. Lahat sila nasa school na. Mga high-school friends ko, nagsisimula nang magsipasukan sa college. Ako..

Nagpapakasipag maging tamad...

Pero konting tiis na lang. Papasok na ko! Hoho.

Cotton buds

A few days after kong umuwi ng Batangas, naghanap ako ng cotton buds sa bahay. Gusto ko kasing maglinis ng tenga eh. (Duh!) Tapos nagpunta ako sa tindahan para kumuha ng cotton buds. Natuwa ako sa naging conversation namin ni Kuya Asther.

Ako: Kuya walang cotton buds?
Kuya: Wala.
Ako: Kahit yung gamit na?
Kuya: Gusto mo ng gamit na?
Ako: (Na-realize ko yung meaning niya.) Ay hindi! Yung bukas na pala. (Tapos walang hanggang tawa.)

Pero kung nagtataka kayo, nakapag-linis naman ako ng tenga. Nanghingi pa ko sa Tita ko. Dinayo ko pa bahay nila para lang sa cotton buds. Haha.

Crazy Little Thing Called Love

Finally, napanood ko na din itong movie na ito. Maganda din yung plot kahit yung story ay medyo cliche na. Yung typical boy-girl love na nagkakahiyaan pang mag-aminan sa nararamdaman nila.

Si Nam, yung lead actress, average girl lang siya. Maging sa looks, di siya maganda. Pero dahil sa pagkakaroon niya ng crush ka Shone, ginawa niya ang lahat para mapansin siya nito. Nagpaganda siya, nag-aral ng mabuti hanggang sa magkaroon ng unfortunate twist of events. (Panoorin niyo na ang. Ayokong maging super spoiler.)

Pero sa huli, after ng mahabang pa-hihintay, the boy got the girl.

Composer

Malapit nang magpasukan...

Pero summer pa din. Kaya boring pa't walang magawa sa bahay. Kaya naman isang araw, pinulot ko ang aking gitara at tumugtog randomly. Nung may nakuha akong beat, biglang umulan. Kaya napa-emote ako at nalagyan ko ng lyrics. Nagandahan ako sa kanta. Grabe, feeling ko pwede na kong maging composer. Anyway, ito ang part ng chorus, i-sh-share ko sa inyo:

You confuse me with the words "I love you"
You make my heart melt with the things that you
With the sound of your voice
And the smile on your lips,
I can't help being caught off guard.

Caught Off Guard nga pala yung title niya. Haha. Ganda talaga. Na-LSS na ko.

Why don't we have enough time to study?

♫ Teardrops on my Guitar ♫

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight

'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do
He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see

Grabe. I love this song. Hindi talaga siya nalalaos sa akin. Well, pano ba naman... Hahaha..

Naka-uwi na ako ng Las Piñas. Madami akong namiss dio pero ayoko pang umalis ng Batangas. :(

Nag-eenjoy ako sa Tumblr. Haha. Dati paview-view lang ako ng Tumblr ng kung sino-sino. Ngayon ko na ang reblog ng reblog.


Ito nga pala ang Tumblr ko... Click here

Letters to Juliet

I've watched this twice and still, I can't get over the movie. It was so amazing how Claire found her true love after 50 years. And in those 50 years, their feelings never changed for one another.

What I loved most about the movie was the reply letter Sophie wrote for Claire's 50-year-old letter:


Dear Claire,

'What' and ‘if’ two words as nonthreatening as words come. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: ‘What if?'... I don't know how your story ended. But I know that if what you felt then was love - true love - then it's never too late. If it was true then it why wouldn't it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart... I don't know what a love like Juliet's feels like... a love to leave loved ones for, a love to cross oceans for... but I'd like to believe if I ever were to feel it, that I'd have the courage to seize it. And Claire, if you didn't, I hope one day that you will.

With all my love,
Juliet

Tagal ko na palang hindi nagba-blog... Haha. Wala na rin naman kasi akong maikwento. Walang masyadong nangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon. Walang masyadong bagay na worth ikwento dito sa Blogger. Hayyy.. Katamad. Haha.

And They Lived Happily Ever After...

I'm a sucker for happy endings. Well, surely before the ending, there is always a beginning, right?

Many people have witnessed Prince William and Kate Middleton's love story and wouldn't you agree that it's just like a fairytale?

I really wish that they will not break-up. I love them. I wish them more power, and more love...

P.S.: I call dibs on Prince Harry. XD

Bold all the things you have done

1. Dyed your hair an odd color.
2. Went skinny dipping.
3. Bought something you didn’t need.
4. Snuck out of your house.
5. Became obsessed with a song no one knew.
6. Learned a song on your phone with your keypad.
7. Knitted something.
8. Ran a mile.
9. Fell in love.
10. Said, “like yeahh” too many times.
11. Lost your closest friends.
12. Got into a fight with someone you loved.
13. Climbed a tree.
14. Did something you said you wouldn’t.
15. Figured out who your real friends were.
16. Graduated High School.
17. Shopped online.
18. Created an account on a social networking site.
19. Got addicted to a social networking site.
20. Realized who you truly are.
21. Sang karaoke.
22. Flew across the world.
23. Performed in front of a large audience.
24. Met someone irl you found online.
25. Found a new band you now love.
26. Realized that Kanye West essentially sucked.
27. Got drunk.
28. Got high.
29. Spoke to a police officer.
30. Realized everyone is a hypocrite just sucks.
31. Panicked over something stupid.
32. Failed a class.
33. Fell out of love.
34. Played a video game for hours straight.
35. Spent time with your family.
36. Ate dinner alone.
37. Cried in the shower.
38. Gained a new family member.
39. Shot off your own fireworks.
40. Made a snowman.
41. Got yelled at for no reason.
42. Waved at people you didn’t know in passing cars.
43. Sat on a social networking site all day.
44. Changed your entire look.
45. Had sex.
46. Ran outside naked when it was freezing out
47. Made your own fire.
48. Laughed at something that made no sense.
49. Fell asleep on the phone.
50. Told someone you loved them.

School Life

June - Ui! First day!Excited!
July - Tuloy-tuloy ang sipag!
Aug - Nawawalan na ng gana…
Sept - Pota.Ayoko na mag-aral!
Oct - hanggang kailan matitiis ang paghihirap ko?
Nov - praying for the Christmas vacation!!
Dec - Whoooo!!!Vacation na!!!PARTEEEEYY!!
Jan - pasok nanaman?!*sigh*
Feb - Uy!Valentines, mabigyan nga ng card si crush.
March - Malapit na vacation!!! OHYEAH!
Vacation -Boring…sana school na ulit.

So Sweet!

Alone?

Lately I've been thinking...

There was this time today when I cried. I was shocked because it's the first time I cried just by thinking of someone. You want to know who that person is?

It's my Grandmother.

I just randomly think of her. This happens often because there are times in my life when I stop and say to myself: What if Lola was here?

I thought of her when we won 5th place in our speech choir competition. I bet she would have been proud.

I thought of her when I held the 5.5 place during our third grading period. I bet she would have been proud.

I thought of her during Christmas, Valentine's, my birthday. If she were alive, she'll cook delicious food for the family.

I thought of her during my graduation and all of the dreams we shared. I promised her so many things. Now I don't have the chance to give her anything anymore.

I love my Lola. She was the person I talk to when I'm all alone. Now that she's gone, I feel more alone than ever. I know It's been so many months since she left but the feeling of loss is still fresh in my heart.

Mahirap maintindihan ang tao

pag kulot ang hair, INUUNAT!

Pag unat, KINUKULOT!

Pag madali ang buhay, BORED!

Pag mahirap, WINDANG!

Pag mataba, NAGPAPAPAYAT!

Pag mapayat, NAGPAPATABA!

Pag nandiyan, HINDI PINAPANSIN!

Pag wala, HINAHANAP!

Pag wala pa, HINIHINTAY!

Pag nandiyan na, ITINATABOY!

Pag malamig, GUSTO MAINIT!

Pag mainit, GUSTO MALAMIG!

Pag mamamatay na, GUSTONG MABUHAY!

Pag buhay, NAGPAPAKAMATAY!

Pag mahal ka, HINDI MO MAHAL!

Pag mahal mo, HINDI KA MAHAL!

Crush vs. Love

Crush.You adore him, laugh with him, do the normal things you do.
Love. You become uncomfortable around him, you wonder how you look like, you try stopping yourself from doing anything embarassing.

Crush. He has a girlfriend, so what?
Love. It kills you inside everytime he hangs out or dates another girl.

Crush. You don’t care about what he does.
Love. It means the world to you every time he says your name, smiles, winks, or looks at you.

That's what happened

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.




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